Making Changes to Be Happier

You deserve what you accept in life…

Since about 19, my philosophy behind making decisions has been “live the way I will one day wish I would have”. Using this to filter has served me well with big picture choices, but it creates indecisiveness with smaller ones. People say I over analyze a lot, and they’re right. Secretly, I’m not so sure that’s a bad thing.

A good friend of mine recommended that I balance my analytical thoughts with my inner feelings. That’s very difficult for me, because I can’t identify with emotions very well. But i’ve practiced it a little bit so far and it does seem to help me clear my indecisiveness.

Logically, I can’t make an argument for having a bucket list… but I certainly feel like there’s a lot of stuff I want to do before I die. I once had a good friend who called me out every time I said “I almost did xyz” by telling me “You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do”.

Well, today is the youngest I’ll ever be. So I’ll try to keep the following list updated with things I’d like to accomplish before I croak…

PS. In case I die early for some crazy reason (feels spooky writing that)- I want anyone reading this to know that I feel like I have already accomplished a ton of my childhood bucket list items. I’ve owned my own business and supported my self. I went to college (never cared about graduating to be honest, just wanted to experience it), I partied a lot in my younger years, spent more time on the beach relaxing than most people will ever get to, bought a house, had the nicest car out of all my friends (again, when I was younger this mattered), found peace in my day-to-day life, traveled to Vegas twice, flew over NYC in a helicopter, took a cruise, dated my high school sweet heart as an adult (hi Kristin!), became a mature-no-trouble-or-drama adult, traveled all around Florida (my favorite place on earth so far) and I’m sure there’s some more I’m forgetting about right now.

PPS. Since we’re on the subject, it would be cool if my funeral was a party on the beach where they played this song, drank and got sunburned. OK, enough with that kind of talk.